Up and down ( haha sounds wrong)

I have been putting my hair up in a pony tail then putting my hair down every 10 minutes. Do not ask why. I don't know. My answer - I feel like it. It's crazy to think that i used to hate putting my hair up as a little kid. I would freak out if my mom put my hair in a pony tail. Back then i didn't care about hair in my face , i would just put it behind my ear if it did bother me. Now i get mad when i do it because I'm hair curls up and it just looks stupid. Well I'm probably doing that because i didn't bring a bobby pin. 

Nunya

People , if you ask me what something is and i don't tell you or tell you " nunya" - nun of your business - then please just leave me alone. I mean it was kinda obvious . Big yellow cake looking thing- uh hellloooo , it's lemon cake. What do you think it is? Rainbows? The Eiffel tower ? Spaceship? Come on , you can't be that stupid.

How did i forget?!

Oh my gosh i feel so stupid. He came to me this morning and was like - Do you know what day it is.
I was so stupid - I'm like yeah Tuesday xD
So stupid, it's been 2 months today. I even thought about it yesterday , i just wasn't thinking about it this morning. I feel so stupid. Now if we were married and i would forget our anniversary, i would be really mad at myself !! He would probably be too, but i know i won't forget that day. Something like that is to hard to forget.

Man.. 2 months... seems longer. Is that a good sign? I think so. I love him so much . I LUVS CHU TEDDY BEAW !!!   <3 <3 <3 <3 

Females -_-

Gosh, i don't hate them but they get on my nerves alot. Always so critical and emotional. So full a problems and won't shut up. Like come on - your telling me to think before i speak- bitch please, how about you listen to yourself. Trying to tell me I'm a bad role model. Look in the mirror, your not better, no- infact your even worse! Ha, yeah i sometimes get annoyed at myself for being so annoying , just basically girly -_-.
Things just got better and she just had to ruin it. She doesn't even have to guts to come to me and apologize ! She probably thinks she's right. Well thank you for making me feel like a failure. Very nice of you -not.

Tacos !!

Yes a random post about tacos because i love tacos !!!!
I love tacos!!
Ich liebe tacos!!
Je t'aime tacos !!
Mi amo tacos!!!

Teddy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha I got my teddy. I is happy now. Forget what i said about about ripping teddy bears apart and burning them. I couldn't do that , that would be cruel. ^-^

Song just cooler

So me and keeler sitting in class, and just start singing-
It's getting cold in here, so put on all your clothes.
I am getting to cold , Imma put all my clothes on !
Ice ice baby

I work out !!

So im already exhausted even though the day just started. Me and fishy were dancing around in the car like a bunch of weirdoos. Then we were chasing each other and wrestling like little kids. Hey at least I'm awake now. I didn't even care that half the school was starring at us. Just having fun, to bad for them. Sitting around like a bunch of looooseers. Watching like looosseresss. Jealous like loosserrrss.

O romeo

Here i am sitting like that teenage girl that i am watching some weird movie just thinking of him. I don't know why i keep looking out  the window like he's going to show up. I told him not to xD. O romeo, romeo, where are you? Haha i'm crazy.

Blank

Hmm what to do about this. I don't know. I don't really have any feelings about anything right now. I'm hiding all my emotions right now. Seems to work out best right now. Don't want to worry about anything, don't want to be upset, don't want to be happy. Just nothing. Nothing seems to make me smile right now. My mind is like - pssh your fine but my hearts like - your hurt, cry already!! Nothing seems to be getting better right now. Just worse and worse. Lol - i used "right now" way to much.

To nice

Sometimes i think I'm to nice to my siblings. I help them so much and what do i get back ? Attitude. I tell them " Do your chores or you'll get grounded" and i even help them. I make them breakfast sometimes i even do their chores. Well i do that because I'm bored and just need something to do. They wouldn't even thing of doing something for me. My stuff is way harder to do anyway. But like , i don't even get a thank you from them. It doesn't bother me as much as it used to. I guess I'm kinda used to it now. I'm not the oldest or the youngest , I'm technically in the middle. Although I'm only a few months younger then my older brother. I'm more responsible than him. I've been through way more than him. Sure he's been through some tough times, but their not half as bad. Even my little brother went through worse than him. Well at least all of my siblings love me. They might not show it everyday but i know they do.

KILL TEDDY

I swear if i see one more rose i will rip it apart. If i see one more box of chocolate i will eat it and then throw up. If i see one more freaking teddy bear i will rip it apart and burn it. Make a freaking campfire. I hate valentines day so much. To all those people that had no valentine ( Like me because i never got asked) .. I'm sorry to you guys. But hey maybe next year will be better. If not then just join me .. sitting here listening to AC/DC eating ice cream wanting to cry again. Crazy .. i cried twice today. This has never been like this. All those years where i was single on valentines day where way better. Got present from a lot of guys, from family and even random people. Now .. nothing much .. a lollipop from Boo and one guy . My boyfriend scared everyone else off. I kinda wish he didn't. I like the feeling of being loved. Who doesn't ? Anyone that says they don't like being love is lying. Attention is good , to much attention hurts my nerves .. but no attention is just sad. So pretty much all my friends are mad at my boyfriend.. I'm not , he's mad at himself. He should be. He has one day to show how much he loves me ( yeah he supposed to do that every day) but it's just one day where it has to be more then normally. Like shit man .. at least tell me sweet things. TELL ME I LOOK CUTE even if i don't !! Is it so hard to compliment me ?? Am i that ugly ? I got whistled at today , and got compliments from other people but he can't do it. Sad part is .. i didn't even get a thank you for the presents i gave him. I try my best to stay calm , not cry , not freak out but just i don't know anymore. I love him , i really do. Oh well , he can make it up. People if he fucks up my birthday .. someone is getting hurt. I don't know if i would want to stay with someone that messes up my birthday. So my birthday present better be freaking awesome . Mister Sir .. if you read this you better grow some balls and talk to me.
Im outtie people

My horoscope

-   This is not a good time to deal with people who don't understand you. It's way too easy for you to fall back on rhetoric and turn them off with what may be seen as condescension. Your ability to accept differing opinions and ideas is strong, but it could be stronger.Luckily, there will be no shortage of opposing viewpoints around you today--listen to them and be tolerant. Don't debate ideas. Rather, pay attention to what other people are saying, and then figure out whether you are in the majority or in the minority. Where you fit will dictate how much power you have to make changes in your work or school environment. 

  

Happy Valentines Day .. not -_-

Gosh my day started bad. You'd think i'd be happy. But no ..
To everyone that's all happy and lovey dovey today - Good for you
( sarcasm clap)

I'm happy for you all.
Haha i got a rose lollipop from my gurl. She so cute. ^-^
And a free doughnut from this guy that i don't really like. But thanks , thanks alot. Not going to make my day perfect but at least it's better than nothing .
Maybe I'll post something cute later .

Ermygosh cute !!

This is soooo adorable !!

I want , i want, i want !! Lol xD
But can't have :(
I should work at a zoo , that would be awesome. I actually thought about doing that.

Snoooooooooooooooooow, so much snow

I don't know if i should be happy about the snow or hate it. It's everywhere !! ( that's what she said)
I mean I'm German right so I'm used to the snow. But snow here, no thanks. Snow is fun and everything ..you can build a snowman , have a snowball fight and act like a child again. But i can't go to school if there's snow everywhere .. no .. i am not a nerd , OK maybe a little. The only reason why i like going to school is because i get to see my beaw. ^-^
Snow can be deadly O.o . I almost lost a finger as a little kid. I was playing in the snow , got tired , fell asleep. So that's not the bad thing , i mean my parents woke me up but when i woke up i couldn't feel my thumb. It was blue and purple. We ran home and put it in hot water. That hurt so much. In Germany if you get stuck somewhere ,outside in the cold snow , there's a big chance that you will die. Where i lived, there was a lot of hills and a lot of rivers,woods and so on. Not many people like to walk around outside in the winter. It's just to dangerous. Last year this kid had gone outside to have a snowball fight with his friends. After a while they noticed that he had disappeared. My whole neighbor hood went looking for him but couldn't find him. Even the police and firefighters went looking for him. 3 months later when the snow melted this couple went on a walk with their dog and found that boy. He got stuck in a hole couldn't get out. Tragic. .... anyway
I hope the snow melts today .. tired of staying at home. Watched 4 movies yesterday. I'm happy my teacher's aren't making me do any work . Well i would actually have something to do then.

Movies.. and my life

So i just started watching this movie and the beginning ..it just touched me . Like the actor had said something that i could relate to. Yeah, that's the point of movies. The whole thing is about ethos, pathos and logos ( fyi if you don't know what that is , then you should have paid attention in english ). It's just so crazy to me because what she said.. i mean.. it happened to me. Gosh .. why am i doing this? It's like i have no life. Pshh .. no, i know i have a life. I'm just bored out of my mind watching some weird movie. Should probably go buy some ice cream and white wine. No i did not go through a break up. I would be eating a lot of chocolate and crying my eyes out if that happened. Wish i had something better to do. It's only tuesday, but here i am .. sitting around like it's already weekend. I need a job .. but then .. i'm to lazy..
Still have my whole life to go work. Why work now? Funny how i started talking about movies and just change the subject to my boring life. Oh well , back to my movie. I guess..

Lazy-day

Lazy daaaaaayyyyy. Haha i had a snowball fight with my brother and some neighbor hood kids this morning. I am way to old for that. Not really, wish i could just run around like them and have no worries. Those little brats ganged up on me. It really made me happy so see my brother running around, laughing and having fun. He hasn't been leaving the house lately, too busy with his games. My brother has been really sweet today. Weird, i mean i got up and he asked me if i wanted him to make me some breakfast. I was thinking " Yeeeeaaahhhh " but i said no then after the snowball fight he wanted to make me hot coco. He can be a sweetheart at times. I really miss my teddy beaw. Not being able to see him sucks. I just wanna kidnap him and cuddle with him. So here i am.. lonely .. laying around watching some depressing movie. ( sigh ) laaaazyyy daaayy..

Whaaaaaaat???

People can be so weird and random at times. Haha I mean i can be too but i just think it's hilarious. So i'm just sitting in class when my friend just starts talking about some random subject.
I'm just sitting there like

Haha

All i gotta say is

To my love/heart/world/life/..everything

Gosh .. i hate missing him. I want to talk to him. He makes me so happy .. with everything he does. Ja, mister stalker .. complaining that i don't write about him. So here's to you - I miss you every second that I'm not with you ! I love you so much !

I MISS HIM !! ( cries like a baby)
lol
Life goes by way to slow when he's not around and way to fast when he is. Wish i could just stop time sometimes. Make moments last forever. Never been this happy in my Life!
I can't even explain how happy he really makes me .. just speechless.

Stupid or nah?

Seriously people.. is it so hard to talk normal? Everywhere i go I hear- " Or nah?" at the end of a question. eh Do you think your cool? Because i think it just sounds retarded.
Happy or nah?
Tired or nah?
Gonna walk home or nah?
Like that girl or nah?
STUPID OR NAH !! Yeah it's stupid. People don't realize how stupid them seem when they say it. I would rather prefer they talk normal than that. I bet your parents are so proud of you.. -_- not.

oh and stop with the duck faces it's terrible.

Smile normal , it's way prettier!