Love letters

So I'm making my bestie write a love letter for her boyfriend. She's blushing so much . It's really cute because she hasn't done anything like that before. I have! A bunch of times but that was like back in 4th-6th grade. Really really cheesy. On a paper that had little mice on it. Was adorable. I was so creative back then, used metaphors and everything.  Almost like a poem. Now when i try to write something it's like my mind goes blank. Like i don't know how to express my feelings which i really don't. At least that's what i think. Even my boyfriend says i never seem happy. Maybe he just said that because he was upset. I don't know. Well i try my best but there isn't much that i can do to show him that i am happy except smile, tell him that i am happy and do little nice cute things. I've already written him a letter. Wasn't really a love letter but at least it was something. I really try my best to make him happy and i really hate myself when he gets mad or upset. I am kinda abusive at times. Not that i like beat him up or anything but i am just rough and playful. I guess i take it overboard sometimes. Well it's not like he stops me. Anyway , that's besides the point. I kinda do wish he would write me something. He said he had never written one, so it would be like really special to me. Seems like only girls do that though.