New shirt

Yaaaaay! I'm bringing sexy back~ ! 

Last minute

So this is about me and Keeler doing our project. Us dumbnuts didn't feel like doing out project until yesterday. One of the girls that is in our group wasn't even here today. So part of it is missing. We still got most of it done and i gotta say it doesn't look to bad. Could have added more color but there just wasn't enough time for that. To be honest i totally forgot that we had to do that. Oh well
Nailed it

Hey lover, lover

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

S.E.X.

S is for the simple need.
E is for the ecstasy.
X is just to mark the spot,
Because that's the one you really want.

~~~~~~

"No" is a dirty word,
Never gonna say it first,
"No"is just a thought that never crosses my mind.
Maybe in the parking lot,
Better bring your friend along,
Better off together then just one at a time.

Sex is always the answer, it's never a question
'cause the answer's yes, oh the answers yes
Not just a suggestion, if you ask the question,
then it's always yes

I'm loving what you wanna wear,
I wonder what's up under there?
Wonder if I'll ever have it under my tongue?
I'd love to try to set you free,
All of you all over me.
Love hearin' the sound you make the second you're done.

Am I being compared?

Sometimes i wonder if he compares me to other girls, while me and him are doing stuff. I hate the thought that he has done 'stuff ' with other girls. I always think " Am i good enough?", "Am i better than the other girls to him?". Now i have trust problems because of yesterday. I wish i didn't but it's just the way it is. It's like a competition everyday. Challenging myself to do things. I get afraid that he will leave me if i don't do the things that he likes. I want to be way better than his ex girlfriends. It would kill me if he thought of other girls while he was with me. It would be emotional cheating. Well it depends on how he thinks of them. Maybe I'm just over thinking again.

But then again i see myself as the upgrade. I am better than them. He wouldn't be with me if I wasn't.

It's friday

Finally! So happy it's finally weekend. Probably gonna go shopping this weekend. I mean my grandma is here and i need to buy so new clothes. So i might as well. Might go to starbucks. Be the girl that i am. Mmm ... love it

Guys just can't do it.

My first concert ~ AVENGED SEVENFOLD

I went to the avenged sevenfold concert yesterday. It was soooo awesome. Had to wait till it finally started but oh well. It was worth the wait. I saw a couple of my friends. 2 groups played before avenged sevenflod, which were Adrenaline Mob. and Hellyeah. I took a picture with the guitarist of adrenaline mob. When the concert was almost over my whole body started hurting so me and my dad went to go walk around. So i get to the exit and i just see adrenaline mob standing there, so i go over to them , they hug me, pick me up and spin me around. I swear i was soo happy. I'll post the picture when i can. But i love that dude. He has one of the most awesome style ever. Has an awesome voice too. It was a great night. The only bad parts were that this dudes kept spilling beer on me, some dude next to me was smoking joints every 2 minutes ( which means i was a lil high, but i was already high of adrenaline ) and yeah then the normal smokers. I didn't even mind the pushing, screaming and getting hit. I was having a great time. Sucks to be short though.

Maybe next year

So i guess I'll say my birthday was ok. I mean it started bad. Mother nature decided to make me mad. Left the house and saw it was raining. Oh yeah great , did my hair for nothing. School was school. Nothing special. Got a lot of compliments. I actually thought i was going to get in trouble because my dress was so short, but nobody complained. Was going to go home with Sam but my plans didn't really work out. xD He called me like 11 times when i was outside walking my dogs. My dad came home later, which made me happy. I got Avenged Sevenfold tickets and some other cute stuff. So my day got better. Just wish ... things would have gone the way that i wanted them too.
My last 3 birthdays have been ruined.

Prom

Best day of my life!
#Princess in the house
I love you Sam

4 months

Angel in disguise

My poor Lil baby got kicked in the face yesterday. He is in so much pain. I hate seeing him like this. Wish i could just suck the pain out of him. [not in a nasty way] I feel bad, i feel really bad ,that he has to go through all that pain. He is a strong guy, not whinnying about his pain, not getting aggressive like me. Stupid, i don't even get why i get aggressive. My teeth still hurt! Like wth! That's never happened to me before. Normally it would stop after a few days, but nope, it's still there. I've been taking pain killers non-stop. Well now I'm talking about me, when i was talking about my bf. Selfish me. xD He's such a sweet guy. 4 Months and many more to go. I just wanna take him home with me, hide him in my closet till everyone is asleep, then cuddle with him and fall asleep next to him. I'd wake him up in the morning with some breakfast, do sweet nice things. Gosh, I'd be so happy. Like no kidding, i love taking care of him. It's like a job to me. But i mean isn't that what your supposed to do if you love someone? Take care of them and be there for them. I'd do anything for him, anything that makes him happy.
I am an Angel in disguise.

Hoodie time!

Yes! Finally! I got his hoodie! Whoop whoop.

Frickin get high off of this. 

Day has been made.

Darth Vader has escaped !!!

Family drama

Don't we all loveee family drama? [sarcasm]

I'm not even trying to fix it. Just zoned out yesterday. 

They were yelling at each other, yelling at me.

I just started singing ' La la la by - Naughty Boy' 

I'm covering my ears like a kid

When your words mean nothing, I go la la la

I'm turning up the volume when you speak

'Cause if my heart can't stop it,

I find a way to block it, I go

La la, la la la la na na na 

[and so on]

Love that song

Blood moon

Fuck you dentist

I am in so much pain. Now i understand why everyone in my family hates the dentist. It sucks. 

She cut me like over 10 times. Like hellloooo aren't you supposed to learn how to do it right? 

She even laughed when i made weird faces and started crying. Like excuse me , but you just hurt me a million times!!

She asked me if i was going to punch her, i said no but i really did feel like it! 

Because I'm happy

I am sooooo happy right now. Like i don't even care about anything. Or at least not about anything that would normally upset me. Sam just makes me so happy. Baby you're my world! I love you!

I'm so happy that we finally talked. Well it took a while for us to talk. [evil smile] muhahaha

Life is so amazing. I'm in heaven right now and nothing can get me down.  

We are so cute! We were cuddling yesterday, all wrapped up in each other. Felt so right. I swear we are meant to be. He's so perfect! 

(100th post) 

What i really want to say ~

Every time i am not in the mood to say " I love you too" I really want to say ~~~ I know!!!

But i say it anyway!

( he'll get mad and upset if i don't ) xD

IHOP and porn

Hahaha
I am really excited now. My besties are getting me awesome birthday presents. Keeler is writing a gay porn story and boo is bring me Ihop ( chicken and waffles).  Ermygoshhhhh !!! [[freaks out]]
YES! I LOVE THEM!!

Arnold

I just realized my dad smiles like Arnold.
Ironic because my grandpa's name is Arnold.

Stupid life

Seems like the day gets worse as the day keeps going. I just wanna run away and sleep through all of it. Get away from all this shit. It's one thing after the other. The last 2 weeks have just been total bullshit. Just fighting with Sam non-stop. It's my fault though. Sometimes i wish i were a total different person. I almost made the biggest mistake in my life. I said i wanted to break up but i really didn't. Life just doesn't like me right now. School is ok i mean most my grades are great except for like one and it just kills me because i try sooooo hard to do it right. Getting good grades is like my main goal right now. There's not even a way that i can fix it because my teacher wont let me do extra work. So all i can basically do now is get an A on all my assignments and homework. Which is not hard but i just don't get how i failed the same test twice.

Glass case of emotions

All this drama, all this fighting and the stuff in school- i just can't take it. I'm mad then sad, happy then depressed, confused then excited. It makes noooo sense. After i had fixed my own relationship problems, my best friend has problems. To be honest~ I didn't even know what to say because it seems like it's the same thing over and over again just a little different. I mean yeah i try to help her but she has to learn how to handle things by herself. Friends and family will always try to be there at all times but
1 ~ it doesn't always help
2 ~ it could just make things worse
3 ~ you have to learn how to do it on your own 
Because some point in her life some people wont be there. Heck i might not even be there. I will try to stay friends with her after high school but we'll see.

Then school was just a pain in the butt. Failed a test but i get to retake it, which is a good thing. Next week is just going to be  Test after test after test after test a.s.o.
Too much stress for me. I'm glad it's weekend now. I finally get to relax and just chill, or maybe just freak out and go crazy, but maybe just cry. Why not just act happy and hide all the other emotions? Well some people wouldn't like that so i'll just go with the flow and see what happens.

Gave in ~ Gave up

I regret it. I actually messaged him but he didn't get my message because he's asleep. I haven't talk to this certain guy for 3 days. Most weirdest thing ever, so not used to not talking to him. It's like i don't have that person that doesn't care but listens anyway. I just like telling people about my life and problems. Makes me feel a little better. Like right now i feel like shit cuz my relationship is just going down hill. So mad. My boyfriend doesn't even get that he hurt me. Yeah sure he wants to sleep but what did i do? Nothing , all i did was talk about my mother then all i get is a simple stupid answer and a night. The next moment he says that his mood got ruined. Ugh men. Anywho back to the message .. all i said was -  I can't believe you say you care about me but then you don't even try to talk to me when i haven't answered for days. Guess i was wrong about you all along. Thought you were better. I mean i deleted it so he'll never see it.  But yeah i wish he would just apologizes....

~~~ECH~~~

Everyone please stay away from me! 
Caution! Very dangerous! 
Hahaha I'm kinda scared of myself right now. So violent and angry. Stupid hormones. I wish i had like a switch where i could just turn my emotions off or like reset. I went off on my best friend XD i feel so bad now. But he took my points in math. I didn't even get the chance to get any extra points because he just yelled out the answer. He doesn't even need it !!!! I need it !! He has a million other points he could use !!
Oh well, maybe next time. I don't think my boyfriend has ever seen me like this. Yeah maybe whinny but not like this kind of mad . Mad for little reasons. One second i wanna cuddle then next i just wanna rip someones head off. The good thing is - during lunch .. i was all clingy was laying on his arm/shoulder and i was quiet for a couple minutes. A couple minutes of nothing. Was kinda happy, wanted to fall asleep. He was being such a cutie. If only he wouldn't argue with me today. Things would be way better. But then maybe not because i want him to argue with me. Oh well ....

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