Moneyyyyyyyyyy

I hate you money
Everything is about you
If i could then i would burn you but sadly i need you
Money doesn't make me happy
but eh
fack it man
...
>.<

Yep, I'm a bitch

Fucking deal with it
If i roll my eyes while talking to you, make bitch faces than that means i don't like. Back the fuck off. The only person that I'm nice to are my friends. The only person that I'm lovely dovey with, is my boyfriend. So if you try to flirt with me I will yell at you.

promiscuous girl

So in art we started talking about that song..i never knew what promiscuous meant until today xD
So this weird dude that sits across from me kept winking at me... I yelled at him to stop but then he just kept staring at me. Dude if you want to talk to me then go ahead but don't stare... But seriously.. ew

Pony

Shout out to one of my best friend!!
ELLO NICK
Love you pony

V. controlling bf

Lol i love him but the way he was acting yesterday was just ridiculous. I think it's cute when he's like that but eh... he got mad about everything..
oh well

ricans...

Lmao  hahaha so this new dude david is in a couple classes of mine and he is hilarious. He's already like good friends with my best friend. This year will be fun. I mean im pissed because i dont have class with my boyfriend but oh well. I got over that.

Back to school -_-

So started school... first 2 days.. perfect lol
but i didn't have a second block class which was just stupid. I kinda wanted to be in band this year but i changed it back to german so that i could be in 1 class with my babehhh.
I barely see him all day in school. This block thing sucks monkey balls!!
Other than that... have classes with friends. That will be interesting xD
So much for being a nerd this yearrrrrr...
* takes off glasses*

Engaged? Married?

So my boyfriend was talking about getting married or engaged. Honestly, I'd love to get engaged been waiting on it forever but i don't want to get married yet. We're young and still have our whole lives ahead of us. I want to make sure that i want to spend the rest of my life with him. Yeah, i love him and would love to be married to him but not so soon... >.<

I'm back

Ye, summer was pretty boring. I didn't really do much except get my wisdom teeth taken out and go camping. To be honest .. camping sucked ass because it was so freaking hot. We were in the tiny camper with 6 people. The AC kept going out. Beach was good i guess. Only went there once. Was at the pool most of the time. Brother has surgery. But who cares about what i write lol. Anyone who still reads this stupid blog is hilarious, has no life( no offense) but duuuuudeeee, bruuuhh.. you're awesome!!!

Confession #5

I'm madly in love with my boyfriend!! <3 I love you Sam!!! 

Confession #4

We have a camera in our kitchen. I basically do everything in slow-motion when I'm down there. Then i try to act like the cameras stuck. I'll just pause whatever while I'm walking or doing something. Then other times I'll just do everything really fast because i know my parents just fast forward everything. It'll look really funny. I basically do that with every camera i see. I will photo bomb people, jump in front of security camera and just be silly. I'm a little goof ball! Tehehe, but everyone loves it.

Lyrics of the day

Who do you think you are
treat her like shit, every time her friends come around
Who are you, to just do what you want to do-
You look like a fool
Do you ever think about others
Cause i don't think so
So take your things and just go
Bitch, you ain't King
If anything, then she's the queen
Treat her what's she's worth
Or she'll throw you in the dirt

You wanna...- lemme...- ok whatever i guess not

Every time i want to talk to someone about important stuff, that person just ends up changing the subject. This is not just one person. It's basically everyone. Fine then I won't tell them in person but it's like their not even trying, they don't even care. Whatever I have other people that care and want to hear about my life. Wasn't important anyway.

Confession #3

I am always hungry!!! Even after I eat. It's a miracle that I'm not fat!!

Haha
I just love watching that over and over again. x'D

Confession #2

I do act and think like a princess. I want people to treat me like a princess. I would let people build me a castle/kingdom just to prove that fact. I'd let guys fight for me, which i have already done. I think i deserve a lot. Sometimes i don't , but i think i mostly deserve the best of the best. Princesses might seem weak but they really aren't. Princesses rule !!!!! 

Confession #1

I haven't been blogging about what i usually blog because my boyfriend reads my blog now. I'm afraid he will get mad about it. 

~This is what I need right now~

Please just shut up!

I'm sitting here in class and these people just keep talking about all the students that have died the last couple years. Like wow just talk about their death in front of those people who were friends with them. I mean why can't they do that in private. Not talk so loud that the whole class can hear it. Some people have to talk about things to help themselves, but like keep it quite. Nobody wants to hear their conversation. Some people actually want to do their work or just don't want to hear it. Death happens, it's a part of Life. It's not fair but we just have to get over with it and move on with Life. I feel really bad for the family and close friends of that girl. But these people in school just talking about her, that didn't even know her~ That's just disrespectful in my eyes.

App.

Yay doctors appointments today. Sooo not looking forward to it. I just wanna run away from the doctor like. ~~

But then again, I'm happy that i get to leave school early. It's one app. after the other but oh well. I had to go there sooner or later. 

TURN DOWN FOR WHAT ?!!?!?!?!

 Jesus christ thanks to Bae, that song is stuck in my head and i keep listening to it. Kinda gets me all hyper.  TURN DOWN FOR WHAT??? 
~(˘▾˘~) ~(˘▾˘)~ (~˘▾˘)~

I give up

Yeah yeah do whatever you want boy. I'm so done with fighting and arguing. Just whatever man. If he wants to just leave when I'm mad then I'll let him. If that's the way that he wants to handle things, then I'm cool with it i guess. Doesn't make me happy but i can't change it , i guess. I just feel so weak right now. Nothing really matters to me right now. If he wants to be happy and cute, cool I'm in. If he gets mad and just idiotic .... eh .. don't feel like dealing with it. I'll just change the subject ....

Testing *Headdesk*

I swear this stupid testing is making me go nuts!!! I haven't even took one of them. I have to take one today. But we haven't been doing anything in class. Just sitting there really bored. Like ok , i don't want them to give me any work but then i kinda do. Summer hurry up! I'd rather sit at home and do nothing well i'd watch netflix all day. Movie time. Turn up !! 

;D

My sunday

First ~

Then ~

Fuck you all

Yeah you heard me. Say what you want. I don't care.

He didn't have a chance anyway

Men. I just don't understand them. So i was friends with this guy and he was pretty cool. We go to the sang soo do class. We were talking normal until he asked me for my number and stuff. As soon as i told him that I'm taken he turned into a freaking jerk. Why? I didn't do anything to him. Why can't he just be friends with me? Idiot. Too bad for him. Now he ignores me and just avoids me. Well it's kinda good that he gives me my space and respects that I'm in a relationship unlike other guys but he could at least talk to me- like a friend. This really doesn't bother me that much, i really didn't know him. I have enough friends.

When I'm bored

Tbh
yeah i wasn't doing what i was supposed to do. I was already done with my math work, could have worked on a different class but doing this was way more fun.

New shirt

Yaaaaay! I'm bringing sexy back~ ! 

Last minute

So this is about me and Keeler doing our project. Us dumbnuts didn't feel like doing out project until yesterday. One of the girls that is in our group wasn't even here today. So part of it is missing. We still got most of it done and i gotta say it doesn't look to bad. Could have added more color but there just wasn't enough time for that. To be honest i totally forgot that we had to do that. Oh well
Nailed it

Hey lover, lover

I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

S.E.X.

S is for the simple need.
E is for the ecstasy.
X is just to mark the spot,
Because that's the one you really want.

~~~~~~

"No" is a dirty word,
Never gonna say it first,
"No"is just a thought that never crosses my mind.
Maybe in the parking lot,
Better bring your friend along,
Better off together then just one at a time.

Sex is always the answer, it's never a question
'cause the answer's yes, oh the answers yes
Not just a suggestion, if you ask the question,
then it's always yes

I'm loving what you wanna wear,
I wonder what's up under there?
Wonder if I'll ever have it under my tongue?
I'd love to try to set you free,
All of you all over me.
Love hearin' the sound you make the second you're done.

Am I being compared?

Sometimes i wonder if he compares me to other girls, while me and him are doing stuff. I hate the thought that he has done 'stuff ' with other girls. I always think " Am i good enough?", "Am i better than the other girls to him?". Now i have trust problems because of yesterday. I wish i didn't but it's just the way it is. It's like a competition everyday. Challenging myself to do things. I get afraid that he will leave me if i don't do the things that he likes. I want to be way better than his ex girlfriends. It would kill me if he thought of other girls while he was with me. It would be emotional cheating. Well it depends on how he thinks of them. Maybe I'm just over thinking again.

But then again i see myself as the upgrade. I am better than them. He wouldn't be with me if I wasn't.

It's friday

Finally! So happy it's finally weekend. Probably gonna go shopping this weekend. I mean my grandma is here and i need to buy so new clothes. So i might as well. Might go to starbucks. Be the girl that i am. Mmm ... love it

Guys just can't do it.

My first concert ~ AVENGED SEVENFOLD

I went to the avenged sevenfold concert yesterday. It was soooo awesome. Had to wait till it finally started but oh well. It was worth the wait. I saw a couple of my friends. 2 groups played before avenged sevenflod, which were Adrenaline Mob. and Hellyeah. I took a picture with the guitarist of adrenaline mob. When the concert was almost over my whole body started hurting so me and my dad went to go walk around. So i get to the exit and i just see adrenaline mob standing there, so i go over to them , they hug me, pick me up and spin me around. I swear i was soo happy. I'll post the picture when i can. But i love that dude. He has one of the most awesome style ever. Has an awesome voice too. It was a great night. The only bad parts were that this dudes kept spilling beer on me, some dude next to me was smoking joints every 2 minutes ( which means i was a lil high, but i was already high of adrenaline ) and yeah then the normal smokers. I didn't even mind the pushing, screaming and getting hit. I was having a great time. Sucks to be short though.

Maybe next year

So i guess I'll say my birthday was ok. I mean it started bad. Mother nature decided to make me mad. Left the house and saw it was raining. Oh yeah great , did my hair for nothing. School was school. Nothing special. Got a lot of compliments. I actually thought i was going to get in trouble because my dress was so short, but nobody complained. Was going to go home with Sam but my plans didn't really work out. xD He called me like 11 times when i was outside walking my dogs. My dad came home later, which made me happy. I got Avenged Sevenfold tickets and some other cute stuff. So my day got better. Just wish ... things would have gone the way that i wanted them too.
My last 3 birthdays have been ruined.

Prom

Best day of my life!
#Princess in the house
I love you Sam

4 months

Angel in disguise

My poor Lil baby got kicked in the face yesterday. He is in so much pain. I hate seeing him like this. Wish i could just suck the pain out of him. [not in a nasty way] I feel bad, i feel really bad ,that he has to go through all that pain. He is a strong guy, not whinnying about his pain, not getting aggressive like me. Stupid, i don't even get why i get aggressive. My teeth still hurt! Like wth! That's never happened to me before. Normally it would stop after a few days, but nope, it's still there. I've been taking pain killers non-stop. Well now I'm talking about me, when i was talking about my bf. Selfish me. xD He's such a sweet guy. 4 Months and many more to go. I just wanna take him home with me, hide him in my closet till everyone is asleep, then cuddle with him and fall asleep next to him. I'd wake him up in the morning with some breakfast, do sweet nice things. Gosh, I'd be so happy. Like no kidding, i love taking care of him. It's like a job to me. But i mean isn't that what your supposed to do if you love someone? Take care of them and be there for them. I'd do anything for him, anything that makes him happy.
I am an Angel in disguise.

Hoodie time!

Yes! Finally! I got his hoodie! Whoop whoop.

Frickin get high off of this. 

Day has been made.

Darth Vader has escaped !!!

Family drama

Don't we all loveee family drama? [sarcasm]

I'm not even trying to fix it. Just zoned out yesterday. 

They were yelling at each other, yelling at me.

I just started singing ' La la la by - Naughty Boy' 

I'm covering my ears like a kid

When your words mean nothing, I go la la la

I'm turning up the volume when you speak

'Cause if my heart can't stop it,

I find a way to block it, I go

La la, la la la la na na na 

[and so on]

Love that song

Blood moon

Fuck you dentist

I am in so much pain. Now i understand why everyone in my family hates the dentist. It sucks. 

She cut me like over 10 times. Like hellloooo aren't you supposed to learn how to do it right? 

She even laughed when i made weird faces and started crying. Like excuse me , but you just hurt me a million times!!

She asked me if i was going to punch her, i said no but i really did feel like it! 

Because I'm happy

I am sooooo happy right now. Like i don't even care about anything. Or at least not about anything that would normally upset me. Sam just makes me so happy. Baby you're my world! I love you!

I'm so happy that we finally talked. Well it took a while for us to talk. [evil smile] muhahaha

Life is so amazing. I'm in heaven right now and nothing can get me down.  

We are so cute! We were cuddling yesterday, all wrapped up in each other. Felt so right. I swear we are meant to be. He's so perfect! 

(100th post) 

What i really want to say ~

Every time i am not in the mood to say " I love you too" I really want to say ~~~ I know!!!

But i say it anyway!

( he'll get mad and upset if i don't ) xD

IHOP and porn

Hahaha
I am really excited now. My besties are getting me awesome birthday presents. Keeler is writing a gay porn story and boo is bring me Ihop ( chicken and waffles).  Ermygoshhhhh !!! [[freaks out]]
YES! I LOVE THEM!!

Arnold

I just realized my dad smiles like Arnold.
Ironic because my grandpa's name is Arnold.

Stupid life

Seems like the day gets worse as the day keeps going. I just wanna run away and sleep through all of it. Get away from all this shit. It's one thing after the other. The last 2 weeks have just been total bullshit. Just fighting with Sam non-stop. It's my fault though. Sometimes i wish i were a total different person. I almost made the biggest mistake in my life. I said i wanted to break up but i really didn't. Life just doesn't like me right now. School is ok i mean most my grades are great except for like one and it just kills me because i try sooooo hard to do it right. Getting good grades is like my main goal right now. There's not even a way that i can fix it because my teacher wont let me do extra work. So all i can basically do now is get an A on all my assignments and homework. Which is not hard but i just don't get how i failed the same test twice.

Glass case of emotions

All this drama, all this fighting and the stuff in school- i just can't take it. I'm mad then sad, happy then depressed, confused then excited. It makes noooo sense. After i had fixed my own relationship problems, my best friend has problems. To be honest~ I didn't even know what to say because it seems like it's the same thing over and over again just a little different. I mean yeah i try to help her but she has to learn how to handle things by herself. Friends and family will always try to be there at all times but
1 ~ it doesn't always help
2 ~ it could just make things worse
3 ~ you have to learn how to do it on your own 
Because some point in her life some people wont be there. Heck i might not even be there. I will try to stay friends with her after high school but we'll see.

Then school was just a pain in the butt. Failed a test but i get to retake it, which is a good thing. Next week is just going to be  Test after test after test after test a.s.o.
Too much stress for me. I'm glad it's weekend now. I finally get to relax and just chill, or maybe just freak out and go crazy, but maybe just cry. Why not just act happy and hide all the other emotions? Well some people wouldn't like that so i'll just go with the flow and see what happens.